New Delhi: Hollywood is a famous sign on a hill, a word for American films, a symbol of fantasy for millions but it devastated him, says veteran actor Kabir Bedi. Hollywood reminds Bedi of several of his films and television series abroad but he says they didn't make him a star in America.
"Hollywood devastated me, Italy and India resurrected me... What comes to mind when I think of Hollywood? It's a famous sign on a hill, a word for American films, a symbol of fantasy for millions. But it's a clever illusion," the actor writes in his memoir Stories I Must Tell: The Emotional Journey of an Actor.
Published by Westland, the book takes readers through the highs and lows of Bedi's professional and personal life, his relationships, including marriage and divorce, and his exciting days in film, television and theatre, in India, Europe and Hollywood.
- " class="align-text-top noRightClick twitterSection" data="
">
He acted in films like Octopussy with Roger Moore as James Bond, Ashanti with Michael Caine, The Thief of Baghdad with Roddy McDowall, and The Beast of War directed by Kevin Reynolds. Long roles in popular television series included The Bold and the Beautiful, One Life to Live and General Hospital.
In the book, Bedi bares his soul and tells the stories closest to his heart. "They are emotional stories of turbulent times. Together, they are the story of my tumultuous journey as an actor," he says. The book begins with Bedi mentioning how he left his hometown Delhi because of The Beatles. He interviewed this iconic rock band as a freelance reporter with All India Radio on July 7, 1966 - an "exclusive face-to-face, Beatle-by-Beatle interview, for 30 minutes" after much persuasion and almost a no from their manager Brian Epstein.
- " class="align-text-top noRightClick twitterSection" data="
">
READ | Kabir Bedi reflects on open marriage with Protima, relationship with Parveen Babi
Bedi was 20 then and the interview went off well but soon his biggest disappointment came. When he asked the radio staffers for a copy of the interview, they couldn't find the tape. It turned out they had recorded other programmes over the taped interview. Bedi also talks about his friendship with Rajiv and Sanjay Gandhi. "We became friends at Aunty Gauba's, my first school in Delhi. It was a small Montessori-style school in a colonial mansion near Connaught Circus, run by a kind but mercurial German lady, Elisabeth Gauba," he recalls.
He also says Rajiv Gandhi's "astonishing rise to power" surprised him. "From being an airline pilot with no political ambitions, he suddenly became India's prime minister after his mother was assassinated by her Sikh bodyguards in 1984." He then goes on to add: "In time, Rajiv emerged as the hope of a new generation. India was hungering for change."
- " class="align-text-top noRightClick twitterSection" data="
">
He describes his relationship with Protima Bedi "as frankly as I can, with my own fallibilities" and also his time with Parveen Babi in vivid detail. Of his several relationships, Bedi says he had gone from one emotionally draining woman to another, without a pause in between, leaving him no time for himself. "People may think 'what a lucky guy' for having one beautiful woman after another. Only I know the price I paid for being an impulsively emotional man," he writes.
The book also has elaborate details about Bedi's connection with Buddhism. His mother became a fully ordained Buddhist nun in 1966. He says he saw the aura of the Dalai Lama when he once met him in Dharamshala, even of his mother's guru, the Karmapa. "They felt like enlightened beings. Buddhism's emphasis on compassion and meditation is unmatched by any. Vipassana gave me lifelong insights after I learned it as a monk in my childhood," he says.
- " class="align-text-top noRightClick twitterSection" data="
">
Stories I Must Tell: The Emotional Journey of an Actor, pitched as It is pitched as a story of his making, breaking and re-making as a man, was launched by Priyanka Chopra Jonas virtually on April 19.
